starting over

Only a few days into the new year, and I have already made a difficult decision with my writing. Late last year, my work focused on a book tentatively titled The Country Wife. This project had originally been drafted early in 2010 and after revisiting it last summer, I became wildly determined to re-write, re-work, and re-do the script with the intent to publish. As the year wore on, however, I realized a terrible thing: I was not invested in it. The overwhelming pull I typically feel to finish a book was nothing but a slight nudge. I loved the story and characters but apparently something was missing. I have no idea what that “something” is, but I do understand this: if I am not thrilled to complete the book, you will not be thrilled to read it. So, after some deep thought over the holidays, I decided to make a clean break. Leave the draft as is and possibly go back to it again. Or not.
Sometimes, the hardest thing to do as a writer is walk away from a project. But when I do, something magical happens. A weight is lifted. Thoughts are clear. Time becomes my own again. I admit to feeling frustration. There is no joy or satisfaction to be found in an unfinished task. However, I am an ardent believer in the power of instinct and follow mine whenever possible. My heart and mind told me to move on. When it is time, it is time. This is right. I can feel it.
Letting go with a clean conscience allows me to embrace another year focused and free for other, long overdue work. Marketing. Online maintenance. And yes, more writing. For while I was releasing one unfinished book, I was plotting a new one. Nothing concrete, but I have begun the process of plot outlines and character development and hope to have something to share soon! And although I have no idea might be in the year to follow, I cannot wait to find out…

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